so theres a rant brewing in me and i need to let it out…
the five parts of Heir of Fire that destroyed my heart:
“He ripped his cold magic from the air and turned it inward, wrapping it around his heart.”
It killed me to read this because the thing about Dorian is that I never considered him to suffer. He’s the prince and yes he has a horrible father who he has to continuously fake submission to but I never really felt that his feelings suffered for it. But then this line… Dorian has a heart and now I want to protect it at all costs. And the way this book ended totally fucked Dorian over, he is in the worst state and someone needs to get their shit together in order to save him or I will slip into a miserable-feels-induced coma.
2) The burnout
While Celaena was keeping the fires going at the celebration and she nearly burned herself out- that was intense. I found myself reading that chapter so quickly but so thoroughly, I couldnt afford to skip a word but I also couldnt linger on one word for too long. When it happened it’s when I knew that Celaena and Rowan were meant to be whatever they’re meant to be. I love them so much, I can’t believe how beautifully and painfully their relationship evolved in this book.
“Like the ebb and flow of the tide, the bath froze, then melted, froze, then melted, slower each time. And each time, the cold soaked into her a bit more, numbing her, urging her body to relax.
Ice and fire. Frost and embers. Locked in a battle, pushing and pulling. Beneath it, she could almost taste Rowan’s steel will slamming against her magic- a will that refused to let the fire burn her into nothing.”
And then, obviously I went mad when he finally saw her Endovier scars and his reaction, but really it was when she was burning out and he felt the urgency of her pain and he was literally the only one who could help her that I lost my shit and knew that part would stick with me.
3) The whipping
“‘Please,’ Celaena whispered. There was a crack, and the world fragmented as Rowan bowed when the whip sliced into his back. He gritted his teeth, hissing, but did not cry out.”
This was just one of those moments while reading that I could imagine so vividly that it hurt. I just can’t read it and not think about if this were made into a movie, how awful and ugly I would look while sobbing to this scene.
4) Sorscha’s beheading
Chaol thought he had not heard it, the wind that cleaved through the air just before the guard’s sword did.
One blow from that mighty sword.
That was all it took to sever Sorscha’s head.
The scream that erupted out of Dorian was the worst sound that Chaol had ever heard.”
This was just the most unexpected, brutal, devastating part of this book. Like. JESUS CHRIST. I was in love with Sorscha. She was incredible and silently strong and so important. And she was so good for Dorian. Not anymore *cries*
5) I love you
“Chaol stared at Dorian in mute horror as his friend’s eyes glowed a deep, raging blue, and the prince snarled at the king, ‘Don’t you touch him.’…[Chaol] looked at his friend, perhaps for the last time, and said what he had always known, from the moment they’d met, when he’d understood that the prince was his brother in soul. ‘I love you.’”
I feel like this is something that not many authors would do. It’s a line that’s not really ever crossed. “I love you” is hardly ever said in such a serious and emotional manner between two people that aren’t romantically involved and that aren’t of opposite sex. There’s so much love between Chaol and Dorian and i’m astonished and greatful at how starkly it is expressed.
Throughout the entire book, Chaol had this huge flaw of not choosing sides and not making up his mind and I wasn’t sure if I felt the same about him anymore until he said that to Dorian. Because now I know for sure where he stands and it gives me hope that if he can freely love Dorian and his magic, then he can freely love Celaena even if she’s also Aelin.